I buy the New York Times at Booksmith, laughing at the financial transaction (with tax, I surrender five of these greengray paper dollars and forty nine cents comprised of silver and copper coins). Do you have glitter on your arms? The cashier asks me. I have glitter all over my body, I respond, and laugh maniacally.
I buy ciao bella lemon sherbet for breakfast. And Kombucha. Pulled from frozen and refrigerated cases, respectively, from behind doors fogged with the cold. Can you say miracle? I hand over more dollars and the man behind that counter says he likes my necklaces, tooth and claw hanging around my survivor of a neck. I thank him, vacant.
I read the paper over spoonfuls of sorbet, with a spoon I pull from an entire drawer full of gleaming silverware in the kitchen. So many drawers filled with so many clean and purposeful objects. On the second page of the paper I am drawn to what they’ve taken time and space to Correct for the Record. It describes how a picture caption from last week’s fashion magazine had included misinformation about one of the garments—it was a cashmere sweater, not a long-sleeve T-shirt, and costs as many dollars as there are days in the year, instead of $965. I split my sides laughing, I spit sherbet down my dress in driblets, kombucha spills from the pooch of my cheeks.
Everything’s ridiculou, opulent, unnecessary.
I got home around 8:30 last night. I turned on every light in the flat. Then off, then on again. I got into the shower. The water trundled dutifully out to greet me, beat patterns down on my skin and the tub’s floor. It grew a little too cool for my sun addicted skin, so I nudged the dial leftwards towards hot, and the water responded immediately, like the best lover in the world. I had to sit down I felt so overwhelmed.
Thank you, water, I say. Oh my gods, thank you. Thank you for this abundance, and responsiveness and presence.
I let the water run on and I look up at the lights shining on and I inhale tea tree oil shampoo and I watch the playa dust washing down the drain, that complex system of tubes and turns and tunnels I never think of, and I’m whispering thank you, thank you.