Liebe will riskiert werden.

Majora Carter–co-founder/leader of the Green For All campaign alongside my boss Van Jones—was an Olympic torch bearer during the San Francisco leg yesterday. We figured she’d have something up her sleeve in terms of making her feelings known with regard to Tibet (and Darfur). We just didn’t realize it would be literally up her sleeve, where Majora had stashed a Tibetan flag.

Last night over a post-torch dinner with her, she described her bizarre day: despite (her kidnappers’) orders not to communicate with the outside world, she managed to hide her husband’s cellphone in her underpants (hers was too big), and from the back of the bus in which the torchbearers were shuttled around, to whisper haphazard info to the outside world about her location. “Can you see any streetsigns?” we were asking on our end. “Do you see the water?”

The route of the “Houdini torch,” as it came to be known, entirely circumvented the picturesque planned itinerary along the Embarcadero, instead heading up Van Ness and down to the Marina, from where they took it onto the highway—yes, the highway— towards the Golden Gate. But just a short way up the cleared expanse of concrete, they aborted the course towards the bridge, shoved the torch into the bus, and sped it off to San Francisco airport.

Majora, for her part, had her moment of glory at some random Civic Center-y corner—Sutter?, Pine?, Gough?—some street name I get confused with so many others down in those parts. She had spent an hour and a half feeling out her torchmate about his stance on politics in general (he felt we should focus our attention more on problems at home, apparently was the gist of it), and she ultimately confided in him shortly before their turn came up that she planned to pull out the Tibetan flag as soon as she had the torch in hand. And was he cool with that? He told her he “knew her heart.” He’d be cool.

And, as has now been liberally broadcast, she did just what she said she’d do, but didn’t get far. The Chinese officials snapped the offending flag away and had both her arms behind her back in a matter of seconds, as she insisted that she was exercising her constitutional right to free speech in support of human rights internationally. For a moment she wondered if she was going to be arrested by the Chinese. Then the SFPD just forcibly deposited her on the other side of the barrier they formed, into the people, and barred her from further contact with the torchbearing elite. And that was that.

Our experience of the day, out to support her while also displaying pro-Tibet and/or “save Darfur” signage, was nearly as bizarre and uncomfortable. We weren’t there to be hating on Chinese folks, or Chinese-Americans. Just as many or most of us in this country don’t support the Bush administration’s warfare, torture practices, and imperialist foreign policy, many or most of them don’t support their government’s actions. But the scene on the streets yesterday was ugly. Ugly, ugly. I understand a lot of the Chinese folks were bussed in to show some pride for China; they were greeted with real nastiness by the protestors.

Then there were the tourists and the local sleepwalkers who came out just to see the torch go by. And honestly—I sympathized with them too. I happen to have a huge soft spot where the Olympics are concerned. Ever since I was a little girl I’ve loved the idea that all the countries of the world come together and bring forth their talents—particularly when underdog countries take home gold medals. I know it’s not as simple as that, I know—but still, when the national anthem of Senegal or Uruguay or Jamaica plays and the people of that country are in the world’s spotlight as Number One, I get (ridiculously) sentimental. So shoot me.

And as the day progressed, and we realized there was no way we’d get to see or cheer Majora on, our little crowd felt sicker and sicker to our stomachs. Mahfam in particular, upset by the barbs, started calling out “I love you—I just love Tibetans too!” as she walked by people with Chinese flags.

In the end, the shirt I’d chosen to wear seemed particularly appropriate. We’d been told not to wear any Green For All-branded stuff in support of Majora, and I didn’t have anything related to Tibet or Darfur, and so I went with a T-shirt that my friend Uta sent me from Berlin. I saw lots of folks trying to figure it out (either that, or they were checking out my rack.)

It reads: “Liebe will riskiert werden,” which translates, more or less, to “love wants to be risked.” IMHO, that’s what we all really need: the anti-hate, the anti-fear.